Sick...and update...

So I'm sick...ugh! I hate it. I hope I feel better tomorrow for work so that I can get shit done!
It's been 5 months since Gabe broke up with me and I feel a lot better. The only thing I'm worried about is getting myself out there and living life! I want to do things! I want to go places! I just feel like I don't have people to do that with nor do I have the money...but I'm working on it.
For a long time since Gabe broke up with my I would always wonder if he thinks about me and if he misses me...I would cry and fantasize about him showing up and begging me back and telling me how much he loves me and needs me. Well...a couple of weeks ago I, kind of, caught him driving through my condo complex parking lot right as I was coming home. I'm sure he was embarrassed. He saw me and I saw him. He freaked out and turned around super fast and left. I text him and asked what the hell he was doing here and (long story short) he basically said he was thinking about me and obviously missing me, without directly saying it. Everyone is telling me that, by what he was texting me back, he does miss you but he's still super confused about what he wants and needs in his life. It was really weird for me...but it didn't set me back the way the whole Christmas Eve encounter did. I basically told him..."you didn't want to be with me, so why do you keep showing up? You broke my heart, the least you could do is respect my boundaries and stay away for a while." I'm proud of myself for doing that.
Anyway...I can't concentrate anymore...my sickness is taking over...

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