The Mind of a Rice Cracker

Why do I still miss you so much...is it just because I'm lonely? Or is it you? It's been five months already! What the hell?! The last few days I've been fighting myself to not text you. What did you do to me? Did I have a similar effect on you? I know you truly cared and loved me...but do you miss me? I guess I know that you think about me since our coincidental run-in down in the parking garage. Why were you here? Why can't you just come out and say it? How do you have no good explanation? Did you know that ever since you broke up with me that's all I've dreamed about? I've always hoped that you would show up at my house wanting me back and telling me how sorry you are and that you love me and need me in your life. But that's not exactly how it happened...we saw each other and you freaked out and drove out... It's weird because I just realized that since you did your little drive-by, I haven't dreamed about you. I used to dream about you almos...

So I'm sick...ugh! I hate it. I hope I feel better tomorrow for work so that I can get shit done! It's been 5 months since Gabe broke up with me and I feel a lot better. The only thing I'm worried about is getting myself out there and living life! I want to do things! I want to go places! I just feel like I don't have people to do that with nor do I have the money...but I'm working on it. For a long time since Gabe broke up with my I would always wonder if he thinks about me and if he misses me...I would cry and fantasize about him showing up and begging me back and telling me how much he loves me and needs me. Well...a couple of weeks ago I, kind of, caught him driving through my condo complex parking lot right as I was coming home. I'm sure he was embarrassed. He saw me and I saw him. He freaked out and turned around super fast and left. I text him and asked what the hell he was doing here and (long story short) he basically said he was thinking about me and...