The Mind of a Rice Cracker

So yesterday Gabe broke up with me...AGAIN. For the same reason...He's just so overwhelmed and he's been in relationships for 8 years, so he needs to be by himself for a while...he says I didn't do anything and that he loves me and loves spending time with me, but he just can't do it. He says I'm such an amazing person and I treat him so well, and that I deserve better because he can't give me what I need. He didn't even give me a choice! I CHOOSE to be with him...I wouldn't have been with him if I didn't want to. Sometimes I would get overwhelmed and worried about us but, because I love him and love spending time with him, I chose to make it work. I chose love over just giving up. I don't want him to stay with me if he doesn't want to, but it hurts because he says he loves me. How can you love me and just leave? Just give up? What the fuck is that?! Just on Sunday, we spend the day together and he looks at me so lovingly and tells me he love...

So it's weird because I created this account a LONG time ago and never posted a thing...but now...I'm going to try... I guess I'll sort of, introduce myself. My name is Lisa...I'm a college student working toward a degree in Psychology...I work full-time as a Customer Service Supervisor/Back-Up Data and Technology Specialist at Whole Foods Market. I've been there for over 2 years and I like it...but I feel like I need something a little different...whether it's within the company or not. I love the company, I'm just getting a little sick of my position. They should just call it what it is...Babysitter...Babysitter of Adults. I know right now is not a good time to go out looking for a job...so I'll just stick it out and look for job openings internally....